But fully trusting God, I mean an unshakable trust, a no matter what I’m not gonna move but truly wait on Him, completely and utterly…His Will over my will… no. I can’t remember ever not having a relationship with Jesus. Otherwise, we’re gonna be frustrated again and again. God immediately reminded me that our relationship with Him as believers is not a relay race but rather a three-legged one, where we are tied to Jesus and we must walk in step with Him. But by this time in my life I knew enough to stop running, to turn to God, to seek Him like my life depended on it, and wait on Him. We weren’t quite connecting and I didn’t understand why. I felt like a runner in a relay race who was eagerly grabbing the baton from the Lord saying thank you, God, I’ll take it from here!īut very quickly it became apparent that this was not the fairytale ending for this relationship that I thought it would be.
Thanking God for His goodness and my good fortune, for these dry bones that seemed to be springing back to life. And as a woman who had been on her own, a single mom for nine long years at that point, holding still, waiting for God to bring the right man, so in my excitement of this reconnection, I jumped straight into the deep end of the pool. And quite unexpectedly we were reconnected, each appearing to be finally in a position to be together at long last. A man I have never stopped loving despite the detours of our lives. You see many months earlier I had reconnected with my first love. The fear gripping my heart and a stream of defeated, hopeless thoughts were utterly overwhelming me. I had kept it together through my shopping but when I made it back to my car, the tears were unstoppable. This wasn’t the first time, nor sadly, would it be the last time. There I sat in my car in the parking lot of Walmart, sobbing. Welcome to Be Grace and Glory, Inspiration and encouragement to help you live with Faith over fear. Subscribe: Apple Podcasts | Google Podcasts | Spotify
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